#one of my students asked me out today in the middle of the lab i was TA'ing   #except he didn't do it directly i think he got nervous so his friend '''subtly''' put her phone with his contact page pulled up   #right next to her lab manual as i was checking it   #and it was at once the most awkward/overwhelming/what the fuck moment of my entire life   #and i very awkwardly said '....no' and then bLASTED to go hide in the bathroom   #except he friended/messaged me on facebook   #a few hours ago   #so now that's a thing   #life is certainly Happening   #i've been asked out exactly once before this lmao and it ended fucking TERRIBLY   #wish i knew why i was like this!!!   #wish i knew what i wanted!!!   #wish i wasn't the world's fucking most anxious person!!!!!!   #ok it's 3am i'm waking up at 7am to do all the homework i didn't do today   #also i saw infinity war lol   #that was a thing   #AGAIN: LIFE IS CERTAINLY. HAPPENING.   #personal   #will this post get deleted in the morning?? who's to say